Absolute Facade

Change of Address

2009-08-24T23:31:00.001+08:00

I decided to try www.onsugar.com
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Eeee-yoreeee

2009-08-23T23:47:00.000+08:00

Hit Baby's crib in the afternoon and we watch television and snack awhile before we both fell asleep until about 7pm. Prepared and Guo Xin came up, drove down to some ulu part of West Coast. Tian Mu's 19th Birthday BBQ. And the fire can't start for 5 hours, wasted food.

Very very heavy photography, hahaha. 'nyway, Baby Guoxin and I went to Macs' for food before they drove me back home. I have my O level's English Oral tomorrow. Time Check, 3.18am. lol.

End my post with this spastic photo of mine

Updates

2009-08-22T23:37:00.000+08:00

I've been pretty lethargic these few days, no idea what's causing it.

But well, I went to Mandai with the family this afternoon. Then headed down to the City for some shopping with Baby. Hit his crib at around 7pm, chilled and television awhile. Before I prepared to train back home. The family came to pick me up at Bedok and we went to East Coast Macs for some supper.

I'm very very tired now, goodnight humans!

Last Day -Back to Singapore

2009-08-19T23:44:00.000+08:00

We had Western breakfast that morning @ deck 6. Buffet and main course style (above).
So I had Coco pops and bread. And I had hashbrown, cheese omelete, baked beans and bacon for my main course. And of course, free flow of coffee. lol

The ship reached Singapore around 3pm and I only came out at about 4pm. And I saw a little head popping out from the crowd, it was Baby. lol. Specially came to pick me up, poor him have to wait for an hour. lol. Back to his crib, then we dosed off while watching television until around 8pm. Dinner @ Zhu Lin with TianMu and GuoXin. Head back to his place and continue televisioning until around 12am, Baby sent me home.

Third Day - Langkawi

2009-08-18T23:25:00.000+08:00

View from my cabin, Langkawi (above)

Lido theatre @ deck 7. Waiting to embark the ship to Langkawi. (Above)

Taken at the Eagle Square (above and below)

Before going back up to the cruise (below)

Before Gala Dinner, Photos taken @ Deck 7

We went for Gala Dinner at deck 6, Chinese food.

Cousin, Grandma, Aunt, Grandma's Friend, Mummy and me (above)

Second Day -Phuket

2009-08-17T23:51:00.001+08:00

Monday's Chinese Dim Sum Breakfast @ Deck 6

went to walk around at the arcade after breakfast (above)

Reaching Phuket, view taken from my cabin's window (above)

Sunset @ Phuket (above)
Shopping around in Potong Beach, a very nice place. The sunset there is absolutely beautiful.

Dinner at Phuket ( below )

Fish and Chips

Seafood Noodles

Coca-Cola! lol

Back to the cruise,
me and my grandmother with a background view of the ship.

First Day

2009-08-16T23:07:00.004+08:00

My grandmother's cabin without windows (left)
By the outdoor pool at Deck 12 (right)

We went up the Cruise in the afternoon and had lunch at the chinese restuarant. Then stayed in the cabin for television until dinner time.

The grand lobby @ Deck 7 (above)

Sunday Night's western dinner

My appetiezer (above) - don't-know-what garlic soup

Main Course (above) - Grilled Stewed Beef

Dessert (above) - Sherbet of the Day

Ending Sunday night with a photo of me and my Cousin

Sunday Night's Buffet Supper @ Deck 12 ( Below )

I'll be back

2009-08-16T11:02:00.006+08:00

We stayed home yesterday afternoon and went out only at night for subway meal at Jurong Point. Meet up with Andy and Sarah there before we hit down Bugis Iluma together for a movie with Tian Mu and Xinyi at Film Garde.

We went for arcade, and some 3D horror show for 7 minutes. lol. Very gruesome! Caught " The Hangover " that movie was awesome! But the theatre was freezing cold. Finished the movie close to 3am, then Baby sent me home as usual.

I'll be away later. And prolly be on the cruise in another 2 hours time. And sadly, my Baby is having a lesson now. When he comes back, he's gonna read this! Hahaha. But 'nyway, please take good care of yourself and not skip a meal and not skip a lesson within this 4 days when I'm away. I will miss you hell loads and 4 days, just 4 days. And I'll be back. Don't miss me too much, cause I know missing someone is an agony. Just let me do the missing. I love you always. And yeah, I shall not make this paragraph so emotional. Baby, most importantly, I hope I won't see long strands of hair in your room and transport when I'm back. HAHAHAHAHA! ( I think he's gonna scold me for this! ) Ok, that was a joke. Bye-baby!

P.S/ Yiling told me no presents no FFFFFF.

All nights I pray,

2009-08-14T23:58:00.000+08:00

Hit Baby's place at about 12 noon, book tickets for movie. Then we slept in for awhile. Head down to Jurong Point. Caught the movie " where got ghost ? ". Afterwhich, we went to Queensway shopping centre for curry rice. Walked around until Tian Mu and Xin yi came, fetched Xin yi home. Then we went Shell station for petrol and snacks.

The route home is very very very long. And, I just realised I haven't been training home recently anymore, always Baby giving me free rides. Hahaha!

P.S./ I really miss my girls very much.

Complicated, Confused, Compromise

2009-08-12T23:46:00.006+08:00

Queensway Ikea for Pouched Salmon and Honey Baked Chicken just now at night, last minute decision. Nothing much to blog about today, I don't want to elaborate much. It was only the last part of the night which make me thought that at least we haven't waste our last wednesday together before I'll be out of town.

Happy Birthday Daddy

2009-08-10T23:45:00.000+08:00

Finally I'm back updating S-quareone.

Let's see, Thursday.
Brother came back from Tekkong and we had Pizza for dinner, the family car broke down. And, I ended up sleeping on the couch ?

Friday,
I was at Baby's crib. We were chilling in at home till evening. We rode down to Bugis Street for the Triple X Chicken and the Hong Kong Cafe's Ice Lemon Tea. Then we met up with Tian Mu. Afterwhich they sent me home together. Chilled awhile downstairs then I went up and think I fell asleep on the couch again. lol

Saturday,
It's National Day's Eve. We took a bus down to IMM for Korean food in the evening. Then we took a bus back and rested. Prepared and hit Bukit Batok, met up with Jasliin awhile. Afterwhich we went down to Plaza Sing for GI.Joe with Andy and Sarah and the rest of them. Reached home around 4am and slept around 5am.

Sunday,
It's National Day, Family Day and Daddy Birthday celebration.
So I woke up early around 10.30am. On the line with Baby awhile before I got up and prepared. The plan was actually to Tampines to fetch my Aunt and Mandai to pay respect to my Uncle. Last minute, the plan changed. We went to visit my paternal grandparents. We spent the whole afternoon there and went back to Parkway around 5 for Scoopz Ice Cream. Home sweet home and had our sumptuous dinner. Steamboat with Kentucky chicken. The day ended with a visit to my maternal grandparents. I missed the fireworks this year. lol

Monday, Which is today.
I woke up damn early at 7am cause i fell asleep on the couch again last night. lol. Prepared and went down to Pasir Ris in the family car. They had Mac's breakfast. Afterwhich, I trained down to Baby's crib and reached around noon. We went down and bought Nasi Lemak back for lunch. Was lazing around infront of the television's screen before my eyes feel very very lethargic. Thus we slept in till 8 at night. Called for Mac's but the server was busy. So we called at 9plus, and it took 2 hours to reach.

It's Daddy's Birthday today, I have no idea how old is he this year. 'nyway, Happy Birthday Daddy and I love you.

We all need some laugh

2009-08-05T23:53:00.003+08:00

Stupid Aaron trigger me to upload all this. hahaha

Baby came to pick me up this morning, then we went back to his place. Slept until about 9pm. Then we 67773777 again, afterwhic I got free ride home from baby again. LOL. Tonight's weather super cold, thus, I have no complains about his bike.

Eye pain pain

2009-08-04T20:52:00.008+08:00

面对黑暗、寂寞、失去、伤害，或是死亡的时候，我们为什麼会那麼害怕？但几次的恐惧经验，终於让我了解到，人之所以在那一刻如此脆弱，because we never know what's gonna happen next.

My eyes is seriously infected. It's seriously swollen till I could barely open it. It's seriously making me feel very very lethargic. I don't like anything and everything it's giving me. No, wait. Probably just one thing is making me happy about it.

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It gives me a free ride from Baby to his place tomorrow morning

Save my train fare, save my walkings. But still, Baby always giving me free rides lah! That big pig of mine actually thought of how pai sey would I feel if I were to wear a sunglasses in a train cabin throughout the whole journey.

I told him I think it's troublesome. But actually I'm laughing stealthily behind the screens. Because with my swollen eye, I seriously have no idea how am I gonna make my way up to his place. I'm like a one eyed jack now lor. Heh Heh Heh. He's gonna read this entry when he is home and I bet he'll have a good laugh. Ya, I like to act like I don't want. But actually I want! Hahaha.

Walao, this eye seriously giving me problems lor. I don't know how to survive until thursday man!

Swollen eye means, I should stop wearing my contacts for a period of time. Which means, I must totally rely on my spectacles if I don't want to be a partially blind person. And just nice, when I'm going to the wake this morning, my spectacles lenses fall off from the frames. I thought it could be fixed immediately. Then the optician told mummy that the sides of the lenses cracked so it lost the grip to the frames. It takes up to thursday before the new lenses arrive. I have had a spare spectacles at home but few weeks ago. The whole specs break into 2. Damn suey I tell you. I wish my eyes were perfect degree. No contact lenses=No infections. Even if got infections, I don't need a specs to aid my eye sight. Best of all, Mummy wouldn't have the chance to nag at how chor-lor am I when I handle my specs.

I'm actually blogging this entry upon my double visions without a specs.

Daryl Kng introduced this and I think it's nice

But, I can't find it anywhere.
So, Ciaos People!

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2009-08-03T23:57:00.000+08:00

I woke up quite early this morning and reached Baby's place @ about 11. Chilled awhile, then we watched a horror movie at PPS until bout 3pm. Baby rested awhile on his queen size bed, while I was busy doing some photos at Photobucket.

woke him up at about 4pm, prepared. And we head out to somewhere near Sim Lim for dinner. Well, the chicken rice sucks big time.

Afterwhich, Baby walked me to the church, Lady of loudes for the wake. I spent few hours there and practically I feel like a walking zombie now. My eyes is infected again, so it's rather painful and swollen. Its tearing almost all the time. This feeling sucks.

I shall end my post with a photo of me and Baby's stupid bike. Ok, not really that stupid. Nice to sit and rest on it. But when he turn on the engine, when it starts to give out heat. That bike will be the thing I hate most on earth.

Tomorrow is another long day, I should turn in early.

Rest In Peace

2009-08-02T17:51:00.006+08:00

I could only admit that life is very very fragile

How many more death experiences we got to live through before someone really understands the meaning of it. How can we treausre the time we have left on this mother earth with our love ones. Who knows the next minute, we're gone too. I'd never expected this to happen, none of us would have. Maybe there's something we could have done to prevent. But it's too late, life still goes on as it should be. Thou things in the family would change drastically.

Perseverance. Is an essential ability everyone have to aqquire in order to survive in this maculated society. Shits always happen in any point of life. We cannot do anything to stop it, we might not have the ability to prevent it. All we can do is to accept and look upon a brighter side.

Today marks our first monthsary ♥ , although we haven't have the time together today. And we wouldn't meet until wednesday. This is sad. But well, I still want to let you know. 3 simple words. I love you, always.

A time machine back,

2009-08-01T23:58:00.000+08:00

变成大人一点都不好. 你再也不能赖床, 不能光明正大玩你心爱的玩具, 更不能把不喜欢的责任推卸. 最重要的是, 你再也无法雍有纯真的笑容.

青春. 到底是什么 ? 是尽情挥洒自我的岁月？还是享受天真的游乐园？无论如何，如果可以，我希望永远继续那样，永远不要长大.

Many things wouldn't happen just the way we wanted it to. Memories, 有的痛苦，有的快乐，有的伤心，有的悲哀, 还有的…连我自己都想忘记. All we have to do is look forward to whats coming on next.

I'm being very very emotional in this paragraph. Haha, beat that.

I woke up late this morning and went to Baby's place late. I got sudden urge for Nachos, so I went to Cheers. Bought my nachos and my favourite Jagabee. We watched the television awhile, I played my rock band unplugged awhile. And we both coma on the sheets. Until 9plus at night.

6777-3777 again, this time round i think they took less than an hour to reach. Very efficient! Hahaha, I missed my last train. So Baby sent me back again.

Time checked, 0306am. He told me he is going to bed. And I think it's time for me to chiong my maths. Otherwise I'll be pawned tomorrow again.

End of July

2009-07-31T23:53:00.002+08:00

Today is another end of a month, I should say this month went on quite smooth. I'm a happy lady this month. Probably looking forward to August. Phuket, langkawi, National Day and Daddy's birthday. AND AND AND, O'LEVELS ENGLISH ORAL! F, I dread going to that school for my papers. So the month of August ain't as cool as I thought it would be actually huh! lol

Woke up relatively early this morning and had breakfast at home before I prepared and hit Baby's place. But I only reached there at 11plus. Hahaha. Chilled awhile infront of the television before we prepare to head out.

We went interviewing at this certain Hotel. Dell's Laptop Promoter. Everything went quite smoothly. Just sit and wait for the call next week. Tianmu went back, while me and Baby went Bugis.

Finally meet up with my Dorothy. Had lunch opposite Iluma's with one of her friend. Afterwhich, Dorothy's lunch break end. Me and Baby went over to street to get some clothes. Then back to Baby's place.

The way home was tedious, somehow dangerous. The traffic is heavy, and Baby's temper is hot. lol. Most importantly! I'm melting, all thanks to the weather and Baby's bike exhaust pike! -.-"

Actually tonight is a night best for sleeping, cause I was sleeping till damn shiok at Baby's place. Then I realised its time to go home. I swear I super reluctant to get up from his cozy bed.

Hmmm, I realise my eye bags. Ah, damn sad. I just applied my eye mask last night. But seems like, no effect ?! -Boohoohoo-

Anyway, Baby say we very long never train blackshot. But I'm addicted to my PSP rockband unplugged ! lol. Hmmm, I wonder if there's any plans tomorrow.

P.S/ I miss L.Yiling lorrrrhhhhzzxzxzxz!

What is given to you

2009-07-28T23:09:00.001+08:00

Ok, I shall say today mark the end of my happiest life this month once again. Ah, I hate this. This feeling is disastrous. I feel like hell now, my back aches, my mood sucks. Worst of all, my head is pumping real hard.

You guys must be wondering why ?!

AUDREY HATE HER MONTHLY BLOODY BITCH
She hate it ! She hate it !

But something in the fridge is purking me up. Heh heh heh heh. My Gramp's homemade popiah! Woooo! Goodnight world, Hello Popiah! AHAHAHHA.

Out with Brothers

2009-07-26T23:57:00.001+08:00

I wokeup for tuition this morning, perfect 2 hours of maths, I can feel like my head is bursting any moment. Out to town with 2 of my Brothers, Kenneth.T and T.WeiJie. We hit Bugis street first, walked around and I bought one shorts with thick gold trimmings.

Then we head to Iluma for a drink at the dessert bar. Drop by awhile @ Dorothy's work place but she seems busy so we walked away to Big Bird for late lunch, Fried WanTan Noodles. Weijie suggested Sheesha, so we hit Haji.

Totally in love with the cheese fries there, very yummy. It's been ages since I last Sheeshaed and frankly speaking I don't see any enjoyment in it. But well, overall. Nice entertainment for whole 3 hours.

We walked back to Bugis and my Brothers head home. So I went shopping alone. And, I bought my shoes! Like finally ?! Just in one week, two of my flats spoiled. Then mummy threw it in the rubbish chute. Ah, it was both my favourite!

Beat that, I bought one blouse as well. It was 8.30pm at that time, Mummy says she's fetching me at 9.30pm. So there's still ample time for me to cross over to Junction's FaceShop and settled my nail polishes. I got 3 nice glittery colours. Now, I'm in love with my nails.

I got home, and I'm so annoyed with the PSP. Or should I say I'm annoyed because I think my PSP can't load Dynasty Warriors StrikeOut. Ah, whatever reason that the game ain't starting. Maybe I should just live with Harvest Moon before Brother come back 2 weeks later. No, I do have a second hope, Rock Band Unplugged. The screenshots seems nice and interesting. Hmm, waiting for it to finish it's downloading.

I haven't seen Baby for today and practically missing him hell loads. I can't wait for the sun to rise. Time checked, 0401am. I should go get some rest and be sure to wake up at 7 on the dot later on. Bye-People! Goodnight Piglets, Goodnight world.

P.S/ Many friends falling sick, please do take good care of yourselves.

Fast Forward

2009-07-25T23:08:00.003+08:00

I hit Baby's place this afternoon, bought Chicken Chop for lunch. Yummy! ( I think I sound very gluttony in my entries recently ) .

I wanted to game Baby's PS2, but he snatched my controller. Triggering me to feel tired and sleepy. So I faint on the bed! lol. By the time we woke up, it's already about 10pm. Monkey and Guo Xin came up and chilled awhile, supposed to prepare and train home. But I'm hungry. So Baby suggested to sent me home after I fill my stomach.

So we decide to 6777-3777. Baby said he told me he wanted Mc Chicken. I didn't know why on earth I heard it as Mc Wings. So Baby haven't really had enough. I'm uberly sorry.

Once again, the journey home is long. Baby haven't grumbled a single bit. He claims that I'm giving him a feeling that training home is time consuming and boring. lol. But anyway, nice dude baby! love chuzxzxzxz alright!

My leg hurts

2009-07-24T23:45:00.004+08:00

I went to Pasir Ris Macs this morning for breakfast , my beloved brother going off for 2 weeks camp at Tekkong. Ah, this is sad.

Hit Baby's place in the morning. Too tired, so went straight to bed.

Then Baby sent me home tonight.

Missed my Brother man. And, I hate Baby's bike exhaust pipe.

FML, Take 7

2009-07-23T23:56:00.000+08:00

I miss everything and everybody now. I miss school, I miss my brothers and sisters, I miss the cliques, I miss the rides, I miss the gatherings, I miss the jokes, I miss the accompaniment. I miss alot of my friends, Kenneth? Dorothy? Yiling? Lovell? Cliques? Everybody!

Happy Birthday

2009-07-22T00:25:00.006+08:00

As the clock strikes 12, you have grown a year older.

Baby, if you ever chance upon this post. I want you to know, you're all that I have ever wanted, all that I have ever wished for. I want you to know how blissful I felt in your arms, how wonderful life have been ever since having you by my side. I feel lucky with you showering me with lots of love every second. You're one in a zillion.

We belong together, like flame and heat.
With neverending love,
Happy 23rd Birthday

<3's TwentyThird Chalet

2009-07-21T22:25:00.011+08:00

Friday - Baby's Place, IMM Giant, Market, Downtown
Saturday - Downtown
Sunday - Baby's Home, Market and Coma until Monday
Monday - Mac dinner at 200plus, Home sweet home
Tuesday - Stayed home, Coma for the whole day

Short Post, I'm still down with Flu. I promised Baby to Blackshot with him.
Adios People!

Virus Detected

2009-07-16T21:59:00.003+08:00

Ok, I'm busy taking care of <3 these few days. He started off the week with pills of panadol. Now, it's my turn. What a nice weekend to start off with virus. I'm sure I'll feel like shit at <3 Birthday chalet. Arghs! I want to recover now instantly!

I'm already starting to feel like shit, So Adios humans.
Going Hiatus for the weekend, will be at Downtown with <3.

17th

2009-07-13T23:40:00.000+08:00

I slept over at <3's place last night. Had dinner along with Andy and Sarah. Everything laid on the dining table was nice, except for the crabs. We spent our night infront of the Tevelvision, watching vcd. It's about some Epola Virus. I swear it's freaking gruesome. lol

Woke up @ 6 in the evening, Mummy informed to be back earlier at my Gramps for some celebration. So <3 initiated to send me home, it's a long journey home but he haven't grumbled a single bit.

My brother looks like he is the Birthday Star. lol

( Brother's girl, Brother, Me and Cousin )

( Another family portrait. Dad, Mum, Me and Bro )

( Me together with my Cuz )

No photos with my ancient relics, they said they're too lazy to dress up themselves to look nice in photos. -.-"

I shall then blog about the presents I received, not alot. But it's the thoughts that counts anyway. I'm really glad to have received all these lovely presents.

The Piglet was from Brother, who went all the way down to Jurong Point to find a different kind of Piglet for me. The card was from my Cousin. The Pink with Black laces comestics pouch was from Bro's Girl, which I'm already using it now. Hahaha. Here comes the spotlight, <3 got me a necklace from Sookee Jewellery. I know it was a last minute present and decision. The thought of him rushing down to the mall after his lessons, even thou he haven't slept a single bit the night before made this necklace a special one. Beside it was a Guess Bracelet from Sarah, haven't known her for long. Thus I really appreciated the time she spent after work to hunt for this gift.

<3 was afraid that I wouldn't love this, but in fact I love it to the max.

Of course, not forgetting those who wished me personally or via cellphone or thru the net.

I have no more spaces to shove my presents in nicely, so I decided to repack my whole cupboard, I think only Dorothy know the big difference in it. Because she witness the "before packed " situation in my room. Lol, even <3 said my packing was power pack. I promised to call yet I ended up making him wait for an hour plus. Lol.

This is weird.
Who's the real geek ?!

Updates

2009-07-12T06:15:00.007+08:00

So this is the late post I promised, along with photos.

Anyway, I blackshot with <3 last night until this morning about 6. Nap for awhile at home then I hit his place at about 2pm. I'm like a walking zombie, dead tired.

Time Checked, 6.42am
I'm on the phone with <3 now, he just came back from Parklane with the rest. lol, we were all blackshoting. That was a fun match. I just got promoted again! Hahaha. Ok people, Adios! I think <3 is chasing me to bed soon, cause I'm gonna celebrate my 17th with him tonight.

I'm back

2009-07-10T20:37:00.005+08:00

Hello people, guess what. I have been busy training my blackshot nowadays and have no time for blog posts! Hahaha. So now, I'm currently at <3's place. He is sleeping soundly behind me now. And I think air conditioner is the greatest invention.

Tuition this morning @ 11. Then went down to Kelatan Lane to find <3 and friends. Lunch at the nearby coffeeshop then went down to Lavender, then down to Iluma. Meet up with Dorothy, lunch with her and chilled awhile. Back to <3's place at bout 6. Just imagine with such weather, we ran to so many places. I can melt until nothing is left. -.-"
Adios people, off to accompany that dead log behind me now.

Time Check, 0513am
currently playing blackshot with <3 . lol, I'll blog a late post of my birthday celebration with my family, along with photos from my camera next day probably later in the night. Heh heh

It's a addiction

2009-07-06T23:18:00.000+08:00

Woke up @ 6am, prepared and went down to hit <3's place with his 爱心早餐! Stayed in till about 5pm, before I prepared and went for Cheah's tuition. Dine in @ Parkway's Food Court together with Mummy. Home at 10pm, <3 have been nagging me to train blackshot. Yooohooo, so I got promoted another level. And, I seems to be addicted to Team Flag Match. Hahaha! Time check, 0336am. <3's internet connection got problem, yea yea. Lousy starhub. Always giving me internet connections problem also.

FML, Take 6
Friends come and go. Yet, there are some who stay by your side no matter whatever shit that is happening. I think there is two whom I knew, they ain't perfect girls. Sometime they make me go bonkers and start all the rejections by being bitches, yet somehow there's a unbreakable bond between us that make me feel the urge of pulling them back. Yes, through conflicts we should all conduct some attitude check. We all have to admit, happiness won't last forever. All these years came by, thunder, storm, lightning. But what matters most now is the survival. We can't turn back and change the past, but I'm sure we could all work for the future.

The cold war is enough, I'll start the ball rolling by apologising. I maybe too harsh throughout those texts, yet its all for your own good. Perhaps I might not know the best way to put it through you yet.

Am, In your arms

2009-07-04T23:23:00.003+08:00

Yoohoo Earthlings!

I got promoted in Blackshot, haha. From that pathetic nooby smiley face to some badge with one line ? Think so, can't really remember. Even thou I got headshot-ed and bomb-ed many a times, I still manage to up one level. Hahaha!

Nothing pretty much gonna happen this weekend. I spend my saturday sleeping in then tuition is on tomorrow morning. Audrey gonna get pawn'd by her tutor again for not doing work again. No, I did 2 questions at least. Then I started to feel lethargic, overwhelmed by the not-wanting-to-use-brains mood. So, I can hit my sheets now!
Goodnight Earthlings, Goodnight <3.

P.S/ Happy 16th Birthday Dexter.P and, what's with the all night i pray quotes ?!

Eugene's 18th

2009-07-03T23:31:00.001+08:00

( Yoo hoo. Whose camera skills uh, L.Yiling ?! )
Ok, I shall wish Advanced Happy Birthday to Mr.Tall guy, because he advanced celebrated it!
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY VAMPIRE!

Audrey love Yiling's hair to the max! From the bottom of my heart! ( I swear she's gonna curse me like fuck when she saw this ) LOL! who cares, she still can't bear to leave me in the end.

Tampines with Dorothy in the evening, then bused down to somewhere near downtown. Not really near also, lol. Meet up with Yiling and Alvin, then we 3 cabbed down to downtown east, LOL. A 3 bucks worth of taxi fare, but well. Too lazy to walk thou. Hit Eugene's chalet, chilled awhile. Home sweet home at round 1am.

Ta Da Ta Ta Ta, I'm lovin' it ~ LOLOLOL
( somehow, I can hear her screaming " FUCK YOU " already )

OK, I'M DONE FOR TODAY. Adios earthlings! Audrey gonna train blackshot now to catch up with <3. And oh yah, talking bout <3, I realised it's 3rd July today yo!

Untitled

2009-07-03T03:56:00.004+08:00

Give a miss to Cheah's tuition this evening. When down to Tampines to collect somethings then hit Yong's crib again, dinner @ ZhuLin. Can't decide where to go, took a lift from GuoXin's truck down to Geylang. They ate durians then walked around before we went for SoyaBean and You Tiao. Home sweet home at 2plus.

Bye June, Hello July.

2009-07-01T23:58:00.000+08:00

I have no mood for celebrations this year, so don't ask me what I'm gonna do for my 17th Birthday. I'm not celebrating it. It will just be a normal day.

It's starting to show

2009-06-30T14:57:00.008+08:00

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FML, Take 5
I finally understand how it feels like, losing love. All the energy leaves you and everything in your life seems to lose all it's meaning. In my love, I gave my heart and soul. My mind overflows with memories of love, of all that we've shared, all that we knew. Moments of love were precious and few, yet I cherished them all more than anyone ever knew. All the heartaches gave me a breakthrough to escape from the misery. The hole love dug in my heart will slowly yet surely close up. I've done enough crying for love, I have my life infront of me although sometimes it feels like it can't carry on. Love has brought me lots of sorrow, left my heart roadkill. It's really time for me to move on.

I Miss Lee.YL

2009-06-29T23:42:00.000+08:00

Lunch @ Techview with Melvin, then bus down to Century. Catch the Transformers 2 : Revenge of the Fallen. I swear it's fucking nice! Rate it 5/5. I feel like watching it again. Hahaha. Megan Fox is damn hot. And oh yah, I love the way they transformed. How wish my Dad's white suzuki could tranform as well. Awww, that can never happen.

Then we both rushed down to Cheah's place. Today's lesson was pretty fun. I spent three quarter of the time laughing. Dad came over to pick me up, home sweet home @ 9pm.

FML, Take 4
Audrey dislike people with no originality. Maybe its just coindentally that same phrase same words is used ? Maybe I'm just being paranoiac ? Yet, it might be otherwise. Yes yes yes, FML once again in another entry. It seems like FML's entries is a everyday basis.
I. really. should. FuckMyLife.

Your game, My pain

2009-06-29T00:43:00.003+08:00

FML, Take 3
Why is ( fill in the blanks ) entering into my life once again when I'm still not over every single thing. Just a call from ( fill in the blanks ), just by hearing the voice. It reminds me nothing but my shattered dreams, hope, future ? All thanks to you, I feel like shit now. You're just playing around with feelings, to see how pathetic I could act without you. Yes, you're made from flesh and blood. You do miss the past. But that only happens when you're alone, when you have nothing left.

Yea, I'm sucha bitch. I wanted a chance between us yet I end up with a rejection. Thus, I posted all your bad deeds in one of my entries. Give yourself one tight slap back to reality. Miss my voice yet claims that I'm acting like a bitch. Beat that, i'm so gonna stab my voodoo now.

I went to IMM Daiso this evening and bought Sherbic. TianMu came to accompany, so we dine in @ Kopitiam. Yong and friends came afterawhile. We headed down to somewhere near Bukit Timah on GuoXin's truck. After done seeing their stuffs, nowhere to go. So they decided to send me home early. Hahaha, I'm home at bout 9plus. Yea, my mum was in a state of shock. But 'nyway, somehow I'm glad I reached home early.

Everyone is telling me bout Transformers, so I'm gonna catch it with Melvin tomorrow before tuition. lol

Just like before

2009-06-27T23:45:00.000+08:00

FML, Take 2
Someone, just do me a favour. Slap me back to reality. I hate every single thing that is in my head now, especially ( fill in the blanks ). Irony and contradicting. The fact that I'm still all about ( fill in the blanks ) make myself feel crappy.

I hit Yong's crib once again this afternoon with the rest. Then dinner @ Zhu Lin and back to his place. TianMu walked me to the subway station, it was bout 11pm. Time passed fairly fast tonight, I thought the transportation was moving fast. But it seems like, it's still an hour journey when I time checked it. Xiaojie's returning tomorrow, can't wait to see if he had slim down.

Why's everybody complaining that I eat slowly ? Cookies and noodles. Yes, TianMu. Stop complaining. I'm eating relatively fast. LOL. ok, about food. I just realised my one-quarter leftover of flower biscuits this afternoon is still lying in my bag. Before the ants start invading, I shall go clean it up. Then lay on my sheets and start dreaming.

Goodnight humans, Adios.

Billie Jean is not my lover

2009-06-26T10:44:00.011+08:00

I'm not a Michael Jackson's big fan, but this is sad.

What moves through us is a silence, quiet sadness, a longing for one more day, one more word, one more touch, we may not understand why some left this mother earth so soon, or why they leave before we were ready to even say good-bye, but little by little, we begin to remember not just the dead, but about how the dead lived. And that their life gave us memories. A golden heart stopped beating, hardworking hands at rest

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FML, Take 1
Friends. Seriously, what's the point of even being in a friendship wrapped with lies. Yea, it might be like something fragile that needed bubble wraps to protect it from shattering. True friendship shouldn't even be that fragile. So what are friends for actually. For some emergency help when you needed them? Or, just someone whom you can pour everything to? I've got friends whom I place them in between the 2 possibilities. Like an idiot being fooled around with lies repeatedly. I excel best in being a pushover. All thanks to this " Friendship ", I feel like shit now.

Love. Simple yet complicated combination of 4 letters. Here I am, feeling bewildered with my life, baffled with my emotions, mystified bout my dreams. There you are, enjoying every second of l-i-f-e. If you've noticed, I just rolled my eyes about the word, life. It's not storming for me to comprehend that life is unfair. Welcoming a newborn life, brand new start. Yea, I'm pretty sure that I can picture how wide your smile is now. Somehow, I'm smiling too. Like some retards who got dejected. Holding on to photos and laugh, " aww, how stupid was I in the past ".. Then the tears start rolling. It's only a line between love and hate. I could prolly start stabbing a voodoo with your name tomorrow.

No more lies

2009-06-23T23:37:00.002+08:00

Melvin, Plaza Sing, Cathay, Kenneth WeiJie and company, Home

Cliques have been performing rather weak lately. Am not pin-pointing on specifics, but in general. Maybe I might be shooting myself as well. But still, very disappointing. Since there is a plan, why not just stick to it. Everytime, eveybody, one by one, last minute bail off. This haven't happened just once, twice or just this evening.

We are unlike how we was in the past any longer. Friends come and go, nothing lasts forever, just being randomabout this sentence.

P.S/ Dead tired. Adios, Human

No more words

2009-06-22T23:16:00.000+08:00

Audrey woke up at 9am. Then she fagged at home till bout 3pm. During this period of time in her nest, nothing else left to cook at home. Then she found this " creamy mushroom and onions instant 8 minutes pasta ". I swear it's damn damn damn not yummy at all, I ended up throwing three-quarter of it away. Don't be deceived by the looks and the smell of it. It looks and smells yummy to me at first.

Off to Tamp, meet up with the cliques.

Me and Melvin headed to Cheah's tuition so we parted with the rest. After the lesson, we headed to Bedok 85 meet up with the cliques again. Dinner, chilled awhile. I was too tired. Therefore, I head home first.

P.S/ God-dammit, my earpiece spoiled.

Goodnight

2009-06-21T23:38:00.000+08:00

Dude, Audrey is dead beat. She's in the midst of closing her eyelids now.
Tampines with Dorothy, Bugis with Kenneth and friends.

I'm gonna hit my sheets now, bye humans.

Second Thoughts

2009-06-20T11:05:00.011+08:00

Hello people. Time checked, 11.18am.

I can't fall back asleep after I received my tutor's call, telling me " Tuition Cancelled, I got something urgent to do . " Woooo, guess she can read my mind that I haven't had enough rest. Hahaha.

So I shall begin with my programme last night, I woke up at 5pm in the evening. And went to my Grandmother's house for dinner. Hit Yong's crib afterthat. Meet up with Monkey, Andy & Sarah. So all of us were on the way to Parklane. When this one mutharfucking cab driver came to cut our lane at CTE, slowed down and guessed what, we lost track of Yong's and Andy's. lol, then we ended up at Potong Pasir Subway Station. LOL Dammit, skip this part. Or I'll criticise that driver all over again.

Parklane, Blackshot. Caught The Taking Of Pelham 123. The storyline quite interesting, just that Yong keep on comparing it with his Transformer 2. He said there aren't any hot chicks there in the movie.

TianMu sent me home at 5am plus. He always send me home but he still don't know how to turn out to my area from East Coast. Unlike Audrey, she's sucha signboard genius. ( I bet when he see this sentence, then he'll say " 我以后不要载你了!! 载你还 kpkb. " )

Prolly blog after I wake up later, Adios humans!

I'M BACK, Time checked : 2.05am

So as usual, I went to reservoir and chilled out with the cliques. And home at about 11pm.

And oh yah. I suddenly thought of you. How I wish I could just get you off my head, I have the sudden urge to squash my brains. Yes, for the whole fucking 4 months, 4 days. Fuck you, YouCheng. You're an animal borned in human form. You're not supposed to be here on this mother earth. Just by thinking how stupidly I reacted in the past, I wish I could jolly well die off in my sleep later. 'nyway, I strongly believe in myself that one day, I have the strength to make your life an amazing one. Living Hell, best describes everything.

The GSS

2009-06-18T23:44:00.001+08:00

I went out with Dorothy to Tampines Mall. And Mango having up to 50 percent sales, Cottons On nothing more than $10. How cheap man! I bought one long sleeved blouse from Cottons On thou. I know Singapore ain't snowing ok! The material is thin enough to not suffocate my skin from the extreme heat outside. And it's only worth $5. So why not ?! I prolly throw it away after wearing that twice without having second thoughts. Lol

Then that Dorothy, told me she's tired. So she went home to lie back on her sheets. Leaving me slowly train down to Mummy's office. Walked around awhile then we went home.

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ADIOS

P.S/ so my black hair or my gold hair look nicer ? lol

Sleepy mode

2009-06-17T23:59:00.001+08:00

I slept at 1am last night and suddenly woke up at 3am. Then I felt so energetic that I start to watch video video and videos over the net. Until around 12 in the noon, when everybody is awake, I went down to Kovan and meet Yiling.

Say Hello to Audrey's black and Yiling's blonde hair.

Lunch over at Macs with her. Then we went separate ways. I hit Yong's place with TianMu and Monkey and co. Chilled awhile there, then went to have sort of early dinner downstairs. Hit back to his crib, while I had a short nap the others was like. First Blood~

Woke up at -I have no idea what time- LOL then we head down to Bugis meet up with Yong's friend. I swear that journey there was a thrilling one! Afterwhich we went down to East Coast Park for some sea breeze. Audrey became cinderalla again, home @ 12am sharp.

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Audrey is kinda sleepy now -yawns-

Everytime we touch

2009-06-15T23:54:00.007+08:00

Audrey have been gluttony these few days. And she fall into the super gluttony category. She just kept on eating non-stop just because she's too bored in the night. But something magical is, her weight is still maintaining. HENG AH HENG AH.

So she didn't sleep last night, then she stayed up till morning. Too bored facing the television, she started working in the kitchen. Aglio Olio! Quite a big serving, definately more than PastaMania's. And she finish the whole plate.

Prepared @ 12 plus, then dilly dallied till about 1430pm. Then she make her way down to Jurong East IMM to meet TianMu. AUDREY SUPER LOVE DAISO ! It's like, singapore great sales everyday. Ok la, for most of the items only. Some ain't worth 2 bucks. Lunch at kopitiam, then someone keep complaining about me being budget about daiso and kopitiam. -.-" Afterwhich, we hit Yong's place once again. Chilled awhile there, then Xiaojie and Monkey came.

( i look damn fat in these photos, what an angle !? )

So we all bus down to Jurong Point, shopped around. Then bus back to some void deck near Yong's crib. Then, start polishing TianMu's bike. Like finally i did that today! STOP BUGGING ME. WAHAHAHAS, I'M FREED! Then Audrey went back home at 12 sharp, cinderalla. zzz

( This is Xiaojie, he's going to be enlisted tomorrow to tekong )

BIG BIG SAD FACE HOR!

I miss how my blood flowed that very night, I miss you cleaning up the mess for me with a bottle of chilled ice mountain, I miss you always found me with my stigs, I miss you puff my stigs away doubly each time,I miss you crushing the lighted ones away from my hands, I miss the sweaty you would come over to me for a cuddle, I miss you use to cling me with your arms on my shoulder, I miss seeing you outside the gate, I miss you sending me off for home, I miss you raising your voice at me, I miss you reprimanding me over the cellphone,I miss you telling me your principles, I miss how you use to pull me back and of course how you pushed me away for the first time. No, not only the first. I think I miss everypart of memories that belongs to you , P.

The sound track, reminds me of you

2009-06-14T23:21:00.002+08:00

( Captions : yesterday's photos )

Audrey stayed home today and be mummy's good girl. I accompanied her for hong kong dramas infront of the televsion today until 12 noon. And I fell asleep. lol Woke up late at night for dinner, mummy bought me wareong penyet. Then I start to fag infront of the television. -.-"

Time check, 0343am

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P.S/ All the bad moments we have been through, how much I dislike you at times. All along those 2 years, I think I'm all about you, porky.

The climb starts now

2009-06-13T23:55:00.000+08:00

It's been long time since I met up with the cliques. For the most impotant reason was her presence at the Macs this evening, I felt so blessed. I shall describe it as cupid struck. Yes my dear, you're my perfect little one. You made this evening a different one for me.

I shan't care about those pairs of coloured eyes that looked at us differently. What matters most is you, my one and only love. We have known each other for just simply 2 years but somehow the feeling stays strong. It seems like a decade. LYL, I shall love you with all my heart. We have came this far, to the point of no return. Tormenting days with guys are over, we shall welcome our brand new start, brand new love with open arms. Thou some said there wouldn't be a happy ending with such relationship of ours. Nevertheless, rest assure my dear. We'll climb the highest mountain together, and our heart stays connected forever.

This post is entirely yours, baby.
I love you LeeYiLing.

Dammit to Maths

2009-06-12T06:01:00.006+08:00

I just coincidentally went back to certain blog, and coincidentally read through every entries up there. In every relationship, there's sure something special, something worth the remembrance only between the two of them. So, shouldn't be taken for comparison thou. But still, the flashbacks made me smile yet along with another different kind of emotion. Am I missing the non-living things or the ones with blood and flesh ?

Your language ain't that difficult for me to comprehend. You pluck 2 earpieces right into both of our ears listening only to whatever problems we encountered, now I'm not the one plucking on to it anymore. To commit a crime as one so we will be handcuffed together always, somehow the lock came loose. You made us wear similar shoes, to feel all we face being in each other shoes. I think the shoe worn off by itself after 2 months. Your hands tied to a big big cloth supposingly giving me warmth with your hugs everynight. I guess you morphed into one of my piglets. Unlimited supply of water, and only mine. Added with high sugar content. Perhaps you go the word "unlimited" all wrong. You placed a crown with your name on my head, and I shall be yours. Sounds like Cinderella, once the clock strikes 12 even the crown turn into leaves. You gave your heart to me, it won't be any different as our heart already connects. I think the connection failed. -.-"

( Taken somewhere around in 2007 )

So I went down to Hougang yesterday morning for breakfast with Dorothy and had my stomach filled. Went home after that and I slept for few hours before Dad sent me down for tuition @ Cheah's place.

Trained down to Bouna Vista and met Yong and friends on the train, while we trained down to City Hall. Went to the IT Fair at Suntec Conventional Hall, waited for TianMu to end his duties before we all went to have Mac's at MarinaSquare. Home at 12am sharp.

Look at the bloody time now. I haven't closed my eyes since the night before last at 9pm. I'm not feeling least tired, just fucking lathargic. Maths Tuition is on later in the evening, so Audrey now. Sitting infront of the computer. Last minute hugging buddha's legs!

1) Matrices worksheet
2) Circular Measure worksheet
3) One question from Cummulative Frequency in the Sec 4 Math Textbook (review qns)
4) 4 questions from vectors in the Sec 4 Math Textbook (review qns)

Sounds little. But all these are a killer to Audrey's brain cells. I have only completed Matrices! God dammit. And i'm now stucked at Vectors. 4 questions from Vectors required, and i'm now only at the second part of the first. I screwed my brains for the last 30 minutes and I still know nuts about getting the answer.

So, just one minute ago. I decided to jump back to Cummulative Frequency. And I think I tyco-ly finish one question on it. Hahaha. So strike off number 1 and 3, I'm still left with 2 and 4. Arghs! Seriously, who on earth made this rule that polytechnic needed mathematics ?! Fuck it, I'm not gonna complete it. I'm mutharfucking vexed! I don't care if the tutor pawned me later in the evening for not doing 2 and 4.

AUDREY IS GOING TO SLEEP NOW!
i'll be back later in the night, if there's more to blog about..
ADIOS

Time Checked : 9.54pm
Sound Track : 三人游 - 方大同

I went out to town with my mother today cause she's specially on half day off just to bring me out for lunch and shoppings. So I only manage to sleep like, few hours. Dammit! But well, back home at 5pm. I manage to catch an hour of sleep. Then tuition time. I swear I keep wanting to dose off!

Then I went to bed after tuition again. I can't seem to sleep properly man, Ok, a nightmare trigger me to blog infront of the monitor now. I dreamt that I bit Carrian's wrist unintentionally then it started bleeding profusely. Poor Carrian isn't it ? But I think he would love to die in my hands thou. lol Beat that, I'm starving! Worst of all, everything that can be cooked had already been cooked due to all of my these sleepless nights. I can jolly well starve to death today until Mum comes back from her mahjong match which i think it's gonna be breakfast by then. If someone willing to bring me some yummy food up, I think I'll love them to the max. Heh heh.

Sleeping Buddha

2009-06-10T23:50:00.002+08:00

God dammit, Audrey stayed in the whole day and slept for fucking 16 hours. How zai man. Then she woke up @ 9pm. Telling her mum " i want eat breakfast " .. lol Then she start enjoying her coffee and nutella bread spread.

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Dumbstruck ?

2009-06-09T23:57:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling very very very lethargic now. -.-"

Anyway, I woke up at 10am this morning, prepared and trained down to the west. Meet up with Tian Mu and Yong. Chilled over at Yong's place, suppose to go have meal. End up one by one use computer. And, what's with DOTA ? I mean seriously, I know nuts about that game man. lol I only know "first blood~!" zzz

Went to Jurong East, accompanied Yong to make his insurance thingy. Then we went to have Astons! Enjoyed my meal . Went back to meet the others and chill out again. After awhile, we went to the driving centre then to some workshop to get things done, then back to the void deck. So well, Tian Mu sent me home thou. lol

I have complete no idea whats with the weather these days, kan zua!
P.S/ OH YEA, I MISS YILING

It's supposed to be the 6th ♥

2009-06-08T23:04:00.003+08:00

Audrey's hair colour is darker now, so people.

STOP COMPLAINING THAT SHE LOOK LIKE ONE AHLIAN
t(-.-")t

I haven't been sleeping since last night. I can jolly well doh on my bed after this entry. lol. So how I spent my day ? I went over to C's place in the morning thou then went to Cheah's POA tuition. Then Mummy came to pick me up, home sweet home.

P.S/ It's suppose to be our 6th. I really regretted knowing you, you destroy my life with your games.

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Blood

2009-06-07T23:09:00.004+08:00

Ok, so its a Sunday today. Dad sent the whole household a message last week that mahjong gamers and night marathoners are to cease all programmes this sunday for the dinner. So Audrey wokeup at about 5pm for the dinner. Whats the special occasion then ? LOL, my grandfather's birthday.

BIG BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY AHGONG

( my father's side, along with my cousins. )

Brother drove us back home. Then I went Parkway, waited for friend's lift down to Plaza Sing to catch a movie " Blood- The last vampire ". So while waiting we went Parklane. Wanted to play L4D but well, screw the machines there! zzz

The movie was quite awesome, very bloody. lol Thou the storyline wasn't that fabulous.

After the movie, took a lift back to TPY. Chilled awhile and Audrey went home lo!

Then she started cam-whoring. LOL

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Audrey is fucking pissed off with certain issues certain humans now. She can whine non stop about it for the whole day. And she is fucking going to bed now.

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Friday Night Out

2009-06-06T19:12:00.004+08:00

Finally, Cliques outing . Only 6 of us ? James, Mel, Junle, Ben, Adp and Me. big big snores man. Ok, so anyway. We went Katong for Counter-Strike and L4D. Then bus 14 to 85 Market for dinner, walk down to the wake. Then somehow, we bused back to Katong again.

Then went to E-Hub for movie. I actually wanna catch the Drag me to hell man. But we're late for the slot. So, beat that, we caught Terminator Salvation instead. lol, so after the movie we chilled awhile at White Sands, then cabbed back. Went breakfast at Toa Payoh then home sweet home.

P.S/ Audrey's leg very pain la

Sequestrate

2009-06-04T22:50:00.003+08:00

So Audrey live a solitary life today. lol, She bused down to Toa Payoh for dinner alone. Hahaha. Then she explored ToaPayoh. Afterwhich she bused back home.

Browsing through my Friendster just minutes ago and I found out some retards viewed my profile. Bloody Fucktard. Yes, ILYC. Audrey is talking about you. Fucking weird freak, since you're enjoying life. For what come view me, nbcb. Singapore everyday so many people die, when is it your turn?

(14022008, DK )

P.S/ DK broke his leg in camp today and he keep call and whine to me. -.-"

Can't get enough

2009-06-03T23:35:00.008+08:00

Audrey stay home whole day today yo! What's more surprising is she went out with mama and papa. LOLOLOL to the John Little Sales again.

Then, she got herself Calbee Jagabee and she's gonna try the instant miso soup!

And, she got the Maybelline Lip Stick at only 10 bucks!

NOBODY ENTERTAIN ME TMR MAN! So fucking sad case.
I haven't had my dinner, so I'm going to eat now. lol

I love this song. lol, DK sent me this few years back. I lost my N76 thats whyyyyyy. I can't find this song anywhere man. SOMEONE, SEND ME ?

P.S/ Life is unfair. I'm here, feeling down about this whole damn thing. You're there, enjoying your time with others. And, Carrian says I kiam eng him. LOLOLOL gdluck for tmr's dude.

I just tried the Instant Miso Soup, fucking nice i swear. I can just empty my whole plate of rice with just that one bowl of Miso soup. lol. Amazingly yummy. Just look down at the calendar, its gonna be 8th soon, then 4 days later marked the second month. Within this 2 months, I wonder ILYC changed how many girlfs already. LOLOLOL I just dreamt that I screwed him and left him bleeding on the ground then I'll stuck boths hands on my waist and laugh " wahahahahahahaha "

Sometimes, the love just starts to backfire.

Retentive

2009-06-02T23:20:00.001+08:00

Woke up at 3 in the afternoon, prepared for Mathematics tuition.

After tuition, prepared and went down to the wake. Why do the cliques only have the chance to be all present at such ceremony ?

Home sweet home at close to 1am.

P.S/ Carrrrrriannnnnnnnn ? lololololol

Unpredictable

2009-06-01T23:49:00.005+08:00

I slept for nice 14 hours today, Yiling came over at around 3pm. So we fagged awhile and went separate ways. Met up with Melvin at Singapore Expo, sales sales sales. Things there are somehow bloody cheap. I manage to get my Za compact with only 17 bucks.

Tuition @ Cheah's place. Supposingly to dinner with Mum and Dad, some wedding anniversary celebration. lol. Anyway, I skipped that thou. Head down to Elias and met up with Yiling. Then I went to East Coast Park, dine in at Subway's.
Then I came home.

Seriously, what's up with life ? You fall out of your mother's womb. You crawl across the open country under fire. And drop into your fucking grave.

What's up with love then ? The one who is giving more than they should is always the one who see nothing in the end. The one who give / takes doesn't matters , what matters is the one who is leaving and the one being left behind / the one that is moving on and the one living under the shadows. Yes Audrey, love is selfish. And too bad, you're the one left behind, the one living under the shadows. Sometimes, people come into your life and they serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help you to figure out who you are. Everybody is just so untrue, none of them are some trustable creature.

I light up another cigarette, 4oclock in the morning. Now I'm right where I want to be, losing track of time. But I wished that it was still that night, yet you looked like you're already in another world..

Everypart of the world is a stage, all the men and women are all players.

Wakeless

2009-05-30T23:37:00.001+08:00

Tampines with Yiling for her lunch @ the foodcourt. Then down to Coffee Bean for her mugging session. So Audrey just sit there and rot until the rain came to save her. Walked around until goner Carrian wake up from his beauty sleep then somehow his friend picked me and Yiling up from Tamp and drove us to Elias Mall.

Dinner @ the coffeeshop, then fagged fagged and continue fagging. Accompanied Carrian for his macdonalds dinner then he accompanied me to the bus stop. Dammit, Audrey forgotten what bus she took! Doesn't matters anyway, I just landed up at White Sands. The plan was to bus 15 back home, yet last minute decided to bus 88 up to Hougang instead. Met Daryl, fagged fagged fagged then Mummy came to fetch me home.

I feel so, messed up. I've been reading my previous entries right from December last year. I'm still struggling through this..

P.S/ Yiling's bite is suicidal, I have bruises on my arms.

Monsters Vs Aliens

2009-05-29T23:54:00.001+08:00

Just the movie title alone reminds me of Miss Lee Yi Ling. lol

I slept at around 12 noon and woke up at 6pm plus today. Off to meet up with Melvin @ Ehub for Monster vs Aliens. Friday night, just the two of us, how lonely. -.-" I wonder where were the rest of the cliques ? lol

We saw Yiling at Ehub after her movie then we went dine in @ PastaMania. While Melvin and I ditch her with her friend, we went for our Monsters vs Aliens. The show wasn't that much interesting but well, Melvin seems to be enjoying every second of it. LOL.

bus 12 back to Katong, while we walked down to East Coast Macdonalds and I had my so called " supper " ? lol. Home sweet home at 1 plus.

Dubious

2009-05-28T23:33:00.002+08:00

Jurong Point with Tian Mu, Ah Yong and Xiaojie this evening, then to Yong's house for PS2 Wrestling match. BIG BIG LAUGHS, I keep losing man. Yong's controller all lag one. Hahahas!

Changi Village for Nasi Lemak with GuoXing's lorry. And he drove to OCH. Ta ma de, I don't even dare open my eyes la. Then to some place to see aeroplane fly. -.-" LOL. Home sweet home @ around 2 plus.

To those who tagged me regarding my previous post,
Yes yes, thanks for all the concern. I came to know something even more about him today. Some flirtatious bastard as well. Bomb like a canon rocket. Yes, he is so not worth and I'm bloody moving on after 2 months of living hell. You miss me? Miss the days ? Or you missed her even more ? lol, fuck yourself with your lies and well written script. You said you were disappointed about your friends and me. You said that we said things behind your back. Get this damn right clear, those things we said were the truth, it wasn't anything got to do with bad mouthing. What you're doing behind us is then called bad mouthing, you don't know the truth, don't let your imaginations run wild and assume all the nonsensical stuff. Your karma will come soon, and I'll be waiting for it.

Memory lane vs derisory

2009-05-27T04:29:00.001+08:00

I'm not quite sure where to begin. This past 2 months has been a mess for the both of us. I have had 10 million things running through my mind. I closed my eyes and let my thoughts of you flow, we haven't knew each other for a very long period, you already had me totally and completely to yourself. I didn't even thought of being with anyone else.

As time goes by, all the endless arguments seems to slowly cover up all our promises to this "love". 8th December, you told me once about not wanting me to scold vulgarities if we get into an argument because you don't want to use it on me. Are you laughing at your lie ? Yes, I'm. All your " fuckers", "bitch". Oh ya, one of the most classic one "I feel like throwing my friend's laksa over your face".

What was that quarrel about ? Let me see. Its about me over at bedok reservoir gambling with my friends during chinese new year. Somehow you said you were coming over to my place to pay a visit to my mum since your brother-in-law have the transport. Somehow you heard some boy's voices over the background, then you went bonkers. Then you told me " I don't have the mood to go anymore " . You don't have the mood at all right from the start, you sent me a message regarding if you come up to my place, your family and friends have to wait downstairs. If you're sincere enough, you need not wait until your brother-in-law have the transport, if you're sincere enough, you jolly well should have even took a bus down. Yes, east and west. Come to think of it, singapore how big. Yes, days later you said you were coming. But that mindset goes off after i ask you few questions. lol.

The first time we argued over the cellphone and I apologised. You said " don't say sorry, I don't like my girlf to say sorry. Even if someone is in the wrong, also is i say sorry. " Now I realised, you bomb like a canon rocket.

When I was out with my girls to Bugis, I asked for your permission because your friend, Sam would be there. When I was at the reservoir, me and my girls didn't even knew that JiaJian they all going. You also called Sam and he said he was alone, so you told me he was alone. Somehow Sam called back and said Jiajian they all going with him. But some stupid part of your brains wanted to beat around the bush and put me to a test. You said your message were already hinting me that Jiajian and friends would be there. Let me recall, the message says " becareful, anything call me " I told you nothing would happen. Then you replied " Sam won't, but his friends maybe will " I've got 3 girls with me over that evening, they saw your messages and none of them said your message was least hinting me about them. So you started your nonsense, saying " i don't need such girl like you. there's still many girls out there. Seriously, you're nothing to me now. No matter how pretty girlf i also can ditch. " You made me cried on the spot.

Photos in my phone, right before when I was together with you. It had always been in my cellphone all the long. One fine day, some psychotic attitude of yours told me to delete it. Get some senses into your head, it was in my phone so long ago. And you've seen it few times before. First time you saw it, you didn't said a single thing, second time you saw it, you just scroll away. Then after so many times, you tell me you were unhappy about it. How psychotic can you be ? Then somehow, I got chased out of the house by you. And somehow you came downstairs to pull me back. -.-"

You said you wanted to eat KFC, so I purposely bought KFC from Parkway. Then realised I left something at home, so i rush home to take it. Then started to make my way down to your house. Then you accused me of going to meet other people because I took a very long time to reach your place. I tried to explain how long the queue was, how i left something at home and went back to take it. West side no KFC ? I from east side carry one bag of fucking Kentucky and train down to your place end up I got such fucked up attitude and being accused.

3rd April, a friday. After my evening tuition about 9pm when I was going out to get dinner. You called and ask me to go over to your place. I told you very late already by the time i eat and get ready. Then you send a message saying " nvm " One word replies, which idiot don't know you're angry. So I ask you " you meaning i tonight dont go over tmr i dont need go find you huh? " And you mother fucking replied " Yeah " So, I had a fast dinner fast prepare, then you text to say its ok, nvm. saying don't need come, tmr then come. For one moment you tell me come, for one moment you tell me dont come. I don't understand what the fuck you want. It's like, you happy you call me now come, your PMS over, you tell me nvm. What the hell you treat me as.

10th April, I purposely cancel my tuition cause Channel U is showing " alone " so i wanted to watch it with you. Then you were mad about the argument the day before. You said you were angry, you didn't reply my messages and you fucking hell said you don't love me anymore. I begged you, saying what you want me to do then everything can be back to normal. Still remember your 3 conditions,

1. " I can message girls, you can't message boys "
2. " I can go out with girls, be it group or one to one, you don't kpkb "
3. " I one week meet you one weekends only, sometimes weekends i go out with other people you cannot stop me, cannot interfere, cannot say u want meet me "

Absurd, yet I agreed to all.

Yes, this is all that you gave me during that 4 months 4 days. Don't need scared me say behind your back, it's the truth. I'm revealing all to everybody. You just start contacting me because you feel like it. You thinking making me feel that you're a good person seems fun. Pull me, let go, pull me, let go. Fuck you and your love.

Night at the Museum 2

2009-05-23T04:20:00.001+08:00

I had my Mathematics tuition this morning and stayed all the way at home until late evening. And Audrey is so not going to spend her weekends being homely! So, Jurong meet up with Tian Mu, Pool at Parklane. At last, Movie @ Plaza Sing. Then, Home sweet Home.

You change your mind like girls changes clothes. You PMS like a bitch. And you overthink and always speak cryptically. I should know long ago that you're not good for me. I should know that you're not gonna change. You thought I would be strong enough to make it through. And I thought if I could hold you one more time like in those days when you were mine.

Untitled

2009-05-22T23:57:00.008+08:00

Supposingly, tonight's outing for the cliques were to town. But somehow around evening time, half of the group bail out. -.-" so, Melvin and JunLe came over to my place first then off to JunLe's place to wait for him get change. Off to Marina Square to meet up with Yiling and DunPing. Dine in at Macdonalds, wanted to catch a movie. But too bad, slots were all unsuitable. So the rest went gaming @ the arcade while me and Melvin went shopping around.

Home Sweet Home @ 11.30pm, off to my Sims 3 now yo!
Anybody there? I wanna watch Night at the Museum 2. Hahahahaha

Unveiled

2009-05-20T23:54:00.002+08:00

I caught " Uninvited " over at the cinema this afternoon with the Cliques, bloody nice show.
Overall for today, tampines>>parkway>>lavender>>bugis>>home.

Anyway, Nic is another fucked up lover.
You can never have both in the world dude! Cheers for your high standards of dramatic skills. After your dreams you found out that all you ever needed was me? Your heart feels that I'm just the one for you? Was is just me, or us? Think back, reading through all the texts. Well written script but too bad, game over dude.

Hi Humans

2009-05-19T23:27:00.000+08:00

I went mugging with Cassandra @ Reservoir Macs this afternoon
Dorothy came >> To Bedok Inter with Shanzi, Alex and co.>> Home

Trust vs Love?

2009-05-18T23:08:00.000+08:00

I'm fucking missing (fill in the blanks) to the max, but well. Pointless.

Screw this blog

2009-05-17T23:51:00.001+08:00

http://idontneeda-man.blogspot.com/

I just find this two girls psychotic, if they feel lusty and have sexual desires. Fucking keep it to themselves! There's no need to share with people all your dirty little secrets la, just do it behind your fucking doors.

And yes, I'm doing personal attacks because someone used my name, with my blog address and fucking tagged at the " CUM BOX " if there's any guys availiable. And F those bastards/bitches who made me having anonymous people coming on the messenger telling me " Hey, i added you from idontneedaman.blogspot " SCREW YOU GUYS TO THE MAX.

By doing this tells me that you guys are just DESPERATE. Like hello, must you add me on the messenger just because someone jolly well used my name to tag if there's any guys availiable? Yes, I may look and dress bitchyly BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN I'M OUT LOOKING FOR SOME GIGS.

Those who linked to my blog from that FUCKED UP LUSTY BLOG MENTIONED ABOVED. Don't ever ever ever try to add me on my messenger. If you're feeling horny just jolly well F the wall.

Town Town Town

2009-05-16T23:34:00.001+08:00

I've been popping my face in town for consecutive 2 days, on a weekend somemore. People Mountain People Sea. -.-"

Anyway, I supposed to meet Key around his place before 11. So when I'm so prepared to walk to the bus stop. He called and ask me not to move. For the first time in my 17 years, I'm holding on to Newspaper, waiting outside the library door like a retard.

FOR WHAT ?!

Just to wait for the library to open doors at 10am. BIG BIG BIG SNORES. And guess what, Key reached in like 1 hours and 30 minutes later.

Lunch @ Wareong Penyet, then we bused down to Bugis. Caught Angels & Demons at the FilmGarade located at the new shopping mall beside street. The show is nice though. I got thoughts of getting the book. Well, Yiling and Jaron came afterwards. Then somehow, me and Yiling left them for some shoppings.

Then, somehow in the end.
Yiling went off to bedok, while Key accompany me back home. SMILESSSSSS [:

LAUGH OUT LOUD

2009-05-15T22:31:00.004+08:00

( Don't laugh, Don't laugh. I know it's funny. )

Anyway, I went town today with Cassandra.
Tangs, Isetan Scotts, Wisma, Far East then trained down to Bugis.

P.S/ I can't wait for tomorrow with my key.

Toolittle too late

2009-05-13T22:54:00.000+08:00

I woke up damn early this morning, supposed to be meeting Yiling @ TP. Then supposed to hit her place. Lol, we ended up spending the day at Safra. Billiard and Left 4 Dead, together with her Polytechnic friends.

Reached home at about 7 plus in the evening.

Love, Key

2009-05-12T23:52:00.001+08:00

I Miss You very very much

Happy Mother's Day

2009-05-10T23:28:00.001+08:00

You weren't home to celebrate. But well, you know I love you many many yo!
WORLD BEST MUMMY, lovechuzxzxzxz

Audrey suddenly miss her long fringe, ARGHS!

What's with him ?

2009-05-09T23:52:00.001+08:00

I woke up at 3plus this afternoon, begin rotting until about 5pm. Took a long bus ride down to the west and meet up with Tian Mu. Dinner together over at the market then started chilling around. Well, something happen thou. Thats making me guilty at the same time, feeling abit wrong. lol.

East Coast Park lagoon over with Jaron and friends. Hit ZhengYang's place afterthat, so I lost like 4 bucks to Denz and Jaron over few rounds of black jack. Fuck, I can probably save it up for something useful. lol. Anyway, I got a free back massage for Jaron and so, his skills sucks.

Home sweet home @ around 3am, and cool. My mum haven't had the chance to nag cause she's like sleeping soundly. Hmmm, mother's day tomorrow, celebration ? lol

P.S/ I probably should get use to not even mentioning about you in my entries. I have complete no idea why I don't even feel a thing after knowing that you deleted me from tagged. But I think this should be normal. Everything seems fated to be, I just misplaced our lighter. Probably over at ZhengYang's place? I don't know. If it were me in the past, I would have still been crying over the lost. Yet, I don't even feel least frantic over the issue. Is this what you wished for , for me to feel completely out of love with you?

It's supposed to be the 5th ♥

2009-05-08T18:13:00.002+08:00

( Lonely bus ride home last night after the movie and I thought of you. )
It was supposingly our 5th..

Anyway, I wokeup at 1pm. Prepare myself then off to Roxy Square to meet Nic. Accompany him go cut hair, lol. Shall not talk about it anymore.. Lunch @ Paryway Parade's Banquet then chill awhile at Macdonalds with Jaron and friends. Tuition later on at 7pm, so Nic walk me back.

I feel like going out later..

Taken

2009-05-07T23:23:00.000+08:00

Temasek Poly to meet up with Melvin and Yiling, Ang Dun Ping. Then travelled to Tampines Mall. Pasta Mania for dinner, then chilled out at the open plaza. Lovell and Ying Chuan arrived then movie @ 9.30pm.

I swear Taken is so fucking nice!

P.S/ I hope ( fill in the blanks ) knows that I'm sorry and I didn't mean it

24 days later

2009-05-06T23:51:00.004+08:00

( Just last night, I shed tears for you once again.. )

I woke up @ 12 plus this afternoon, waited for Yiling to come over to my place after her school. Gossip awhile and went downstairs Polyclinic waited for Nic. Then accompanied him.

something happened during the interval, yeah. So in conclusion, Yiling with the rest were @ Grandlink L4D-ing . While Nic and me were katong laksa-ing. Oh, and Jaron bought a keychain from Genting for me. Glad that he didn't forget.

Home early today [:

Starbucks vs Coffee bean

2009-05-05T23:52:00.000+08:00

Tampines this evening with Yiling, Melvin, Dunping, Nicol and Seyen. Been hanging out at Coffee bean lately yo! Hahaha, nice ambience.

Anyway, I saw Shan Zi at Tampines. Chill with him for awhile then off to Tampines1's cold storage. Shopped awhile there before i make my way home at around 10.30pm.

is it true that you've given up ?

dilemma

2009-05-04T23:58:00.002+08:00

( overdue neoprints )

When I'm reaching out for you, you step backward. When I'm moving forward, you start pulling me back. What on earth are you thinking ?

3.55AM now, what happened this morning happened again. -.-"

Quit playing games with my heart

2009-05-04T06:08:00.005+08:00

liars, liars, liars are everywhere, every corner. I can't understand the fun part of being one ? Maybe ( fill in the blanks ) knows it very well. Perhaps he's enjoying ? I'll just have to say, I'm lucky enough to not fall into his plot yet .

What's with the guiltyness ( fill in the blanks ) mentioned about contacting the other one when there's a " me " ? Lol. What's with the strong feeling ( fill in the blanks ) said before ? Lol. What's with the 2 slots ( fill in the blanks ) said ? What's with the " i'll promise i'll never let you down " phrase which ( fill in the blanks ) bragged about ? Lol.

It is a waste that ( fill in the blanks ) couldn't continue the game isn't it ?
I should have kept all the texts from ( fill in the blanks ) and compare it with the lies, it would be interesting..

fucknnbccb.

When I walked out, said that I had enough

2009-05-02T15:57:00.008+08:00

You walked into my life and it was all about us, but now I'm sitting here thinking I messed the whole thing up. I still remember what happened that night, very vividly. I really am missing you quite alot.

Ciaos, I'm hitting Jaclyn's 21st Birthday Chalet later. Prolly blog again at night when I'm back

-BACK FROM ARANDA-

Thats Cassandra and Dorothy @ Jaclyn's 21st Birthday, and walao, I look fat.

My new friend! lol, Mavis ? I think so.

Freebies vs Faggots ?

2009-05-01T22:47:00.003+08:00

horsemen with Jaron @ Cathay Plaza Sing
lunch at Shi Lin's oyster mian xian
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LABOUR DAY WATCH MOVIE GOT FREE MINI POP CORN AND COKE! lolololololol ( Jaron's all time favourite freebies ) And, JARON IS A FAGGOT because he's using a pink ear piece

Bye Human, Goodnight world.

<3 ILYC

2009-04-30T23:40:00.002+08:00

If only you could see the tears in the world you left behind. If only you could heal my heart just one more time. Even when I close my eyes, there's an image of your face. And once again I come to realise, you're a loss I can't replace. In my heart you were the only, your memory live on. I would give my life away, if it could only be the same. Time will never change the things you told me. After all we're meant to be love will bring us back to you and me. If only you could see..

If I get to grow old, with many years behind me. There's only one thing I want, one thing I need beside me. For all that you are, for everything you do, for all that you've done. Just for showing me the truth ..

Snores

2009-04-29T23:59:00.000+08:00

sleep, wake up, computer,
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waroeng panyet with Jaron and Xiao Bai
Watch them play pool
Home sweet Home
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Car ride to Singapore Expo
Fetched Brother and his girl
supper @ 85 market for Sting Ray
Home sweet Home

( B-O-R-I-N-G )

No point anymore

2009-04-28T23:43:00.000+08:00

out of home at around afternoon and went down to College East for lunch with Dorothy and Eugene. Then to Tampines with Dorothy, walked around..

Eugene came over to find us after his lessons, so we 3 waited for Yiling to come. Then dorothy and Eugene went off first. So me and Yiling waited for Nic to come. Then we 3 went off to food court for dinner while waiting for Jaron. LOLOLOLOL

I supposed to be going home straight, but Jaron and Nic heading towards Parkway Macdonald with Xiao Bai and Siewting. So, I stayed for the mac dinner. Then, Nic walked me home :]

P.S/ Am i wrong to scold you like this ?

16 days ago

2009-04-27T23:12:00.001+08:00

I'm almost over you

Reservoir Mac with ShaneyPants and Shanice while waiting for Dorothy in the morning, then Dorothy and me, went over to Sims Drive's Shun Li Industrial Park ? I wanted to get my pay, fucking weather, make us fucking pek cek. In the end still fucking no cheque take. -.-"

Cheah's tuition with Melvin, then went off to 85 Market for dinner.

Home sweet home at around 10.45pm.

P.S/ time has got away, it's taking back everything we thought we had.

Heavy Photography

2009-04-26T22:17:00.008+08:00

Bugis yesterday afternoon with Dorothy. Headed down to Tampines meet up with different groups together with Yiling. Sebas, Zhen Ning, Eugene, Jaron, Nic ? lol

Dine in @ Han's, then to Nic's house void deck. Slack awhile before I went back to Interchange, met Sebas with Dorothy for a short while then cab home ey. lol.

Woke up late today at around 1pm, head down to Mac and met Kenneth, he is freakingly teaching me mathematics. LOLOLOLOLOL. Then met up with Dorothy and head down to Tampines Coffee Bean meet up with Zhen Ning , Zinc and co.

Home sweet home at around 8 ?
P.S/ i enjoyed today, only that part where i'm missing you..

It ends tonight

2009-04-24T23:59:00.001+08:00

I waited, could have waited even longer if you ask me to. I given both of us the chance to think and to turn back but you throw the chances away.

Enjoy your time outside, looking for a new " her ".. And don't ever look back and tell me that you missed me.

Tomorrow ?

2009-04-23T23:07:00.000+08:00

Basically I went out to Macdonalds meeting Dorothy, yet I saw whole bunch of familiar faces. Melvin came, so we bus to Cheah's tuition.

Tampines Mall together with Yiling Dorothy and Eugene. Then Yiling went off, so we 3 spent like 24 bucks on some INCREDIBLE TALES kind of movie. It sucks, totally sucks to the max. I can't even remember the Movie name..

P.S/ have you thought about it, baby ?

What's the point

2009-04-22T23:43:00.000+08:00

Simei for lunch with Dorothy, then to Tamp One. Someone complain say tired want go home sleep. So I actually wanted to train down to Mummy's office. Yet somehow I was lazy..

So In the end, I took a long train ride to Pioneer station and all sides, HDB BLOCKS. -.-" train back to Tanjong Pagar, walk around at Amara Hotel then I went up to Mum's office for coffee. Both me and mummy went down to bugis, shopped until 9. I only bought one sandals, that's so sad. Heh heh!

P.S/ love, i saw your tagged comments and i think you won't even look back.. let's wait and see until Friday comes..

Actually..

2009-04-21T23:41:00.003+08:00

I bus to your house today, crossing the same old bridge, walking the same old jogging track, waiting at the same old seat at the same old void deck, pressing the same old lift button, taking the same old lift up to the same old level, walked down the same old stairs.

Just that I didn't stand outside the same old door and I didn't get to see the same old you, except for the same old hands ..

Then..

I walked down the same old stairs, walk the same old jogging track and waited at the same old bus stop, and took the same old 506 bus.

Just that the same old you didn't walk the same old jogging track with me, didn't waited at the same old bus stop with me and didn't same old kissed me goodbye..

( It was part of your birthday gift, but i guess it somehow lost it's way )

What's with all this ?

2009-04-21T05:27:00.004+08:00

I can't believe you're saying all this to me, all of the sudden, I feel even lost. Do you feel regret over all the decisions made ? So you knew that I was good all the while .. Then why, things end up like this ? You could have salvage the whole situation that night yet you didn't. You could have kept me waiting yet you didn't. You could have get everything back on track within this whole week yet you didn't. I can't always be the one saving it or waiting for it to be saved, do you comprehend ? You got the chance to do something about it yet you didn't. Yes, I appreciate what you said to me just moments ago. But what's the use now ? Why didn't you just treasured the time, treasured me and everything else ?

What's with all these, I have had 10 million things running through my mind.

You chose to stay silent

2009-04-19T23:07:00.001+08:00

I thought you won't even spare a thought about it, things that happened one week ago. But the moment someone told me how you spent that night, I've regretted.. Yet if you were serious that you couldn't bear to let me go, why haven't you came back to me yet ? Sounds contradicting but maybe you feel that is best for us if we were to stay silent.

( 17 again last night at Ehub with Classmates )

Poly is starting tomorrow, all the best to all my friends new in poly [:

Tell me why

2009-04-18T10:13:00.002+08:00

I haven't close my eyes for the past 2 days already, I just can't fall asleep. Because whenever I'm alone, I'll think of " us ". Everybody is brain-washing me to face the fact that we can't go back together. Yes, I know that too. But facing the fact and getting over you is a complete two different meaning. I know it's time for me to really buck up and get on with life like how I was before I met you. But it's difficult, it's really difficult.

分开是一种解脱

2009-04-17T07:09:00.008+08:00

I'm freaking suffering from insomnia. And my weight just keep on going down. I want to give up everything now, life sucks. My mom thinks i'm bonkers,lol.

Anyway, things ended everything is over. There's no need to pursue whether promised/break promises, lies/no lies, on purpose/not on purpose because if you do that, you make the word "love" sound even pathetic.

Yes, I'm not coping as well as how you are now. Because " letting go " isn't something you felt before. I'm going through a rough patch yet I believe time will heal all wounds. I'm not trying to win your sympathy, you given me enough of that . I don't need it anymore..

Just live your life happily and I'll be happy [:
I still miss you.

As the song started playing

2009-04-14T23:28:00.003+08:00

I hate tuitions suddenly.

I was in the bus today. Quiet and alone, on my way back home. Plugged in my earpiece and switch the playlist to a shuffled mode. Coincidentally it hit 一路向北. (-) told me it was his favourite.. I feel lost, stucked. I'm clueless about what am I going to do next. I know I shouldn't be hoping for anything else already, so.. Just move on ?

( someone took tons of photo's' in my room. so she's gonna pay me )

爱你还是恨你?

2009-04-13T05:37:00.003+08:00

眼泪都已不够, 我说再见却还舍不得走. 还给你想要的自由可是那些甜言蜜语还在耳边停留. 别再互相折磨, 我想还是保持沉默. 有一天我想起你脸, 我不想念说不想念, 没有勇气再回头.

我以为泪水都流乾, 以为从此不再有遗憾. 不要为你夜夜泪水洗脸, 不要哭泣的脸让你再看见. 飞到过去回到爱你之前 ..

Back to square one

2009-04-12T07:02:00.004+08:00

Dedicated to him,

Actually all along, we haven't been moving on. We're both at faults. I can sense that you're doing things to make me retreat and give up myself willingly. I caught your hint. You always wanted to be free, now you're already. What's your plan next ? We loved the correct person, just that we loved at a wrong timing.

Will you still feel cramp while sleeping at night, next to me ? Will I feel squeezed ? Will I still get hit in the middle of the night cluelessly ? Will I wake up to check whether your head is on the pillow ? Will you feel lonely during weekends ? Will your phone feel empty without my messages ? Will you miss my voice shouting at you ? Will you miss the image of me crying ? It's morning now, will I still get angry when I wake up seeing you on the bed while I'm being abandoned on the mattress ?

After we lost each other's presence forever, in the end, it's those small things you remember, little imperfections. That make everything perfect for us. Beautifully imperfect 4 months.

♥

2009-04-08T23:30:00.001+08:00

Happy Fourth Monthsary

Living my life so long, without knowing your existence. Then came a day we felt each others presence. I guessed what's meant to be will always find it's way, love creeps into hearts and decides to stay.

________________________________

I went off to Suntec City with Yiling this afternoon, lunch at Pastamania.

Shinjuku's Incident at Eng Wah. The show is awesome, especially those hands/arms chopping , throat slashing/stabbing. lols. Totally gruesome to the max, makes me feel like vomiting in the cinema. Hahaha.

Anyway, Aaron if you're reading this. I don't want your empty egg shell because i know your painting sucks. lol. I'll appreciate more if it's an kinder surprise egg. LOL